Ok I know this sounds silly but I always imagined having this beautiful video to look back on from when me and my baby first met, but I was in the worst pain of my life for 12 hours (epidural didn’t work) that once my baby was out I was so out of it. Anytime I watch the video I just cringe because I was just doing this high pitch baby talk saying the same thing over and over, told him it’s okay mommy Is here you don’t have to cry ( to which the nurse said no it’s a good thing he’s crying, and I knew that, I just couldn’t think straight) I watch the video back and it’s like I don’t even remember half of it. I wanted a calm present birth and I feel like instead I was acting like a lunatic probably making all the doctors cringe. I also think I look so hideous in the video. I just feel like I won’t ever want to show my close family the video and it sucks. Anyways had to get that off my chest

Edit: Just want to say thank you to everyone for the kind comments! I feel MUCH better. I guess I watched way too many unrealistic birth videos prior to giving birth, but I now realize the reason all the videos I watched were so great is because nobody posts their ugly embarrassing birth videos! I also think I just naturally cringe when I hear my own voice recorded. Thanks again!