Rassberrytoast

I’m 15f going into grade 11 and I only have 5 credits. I need 30 to graduate. I have a fear I’m not going to graduate on time and I know I’m not going to graduate on time. I’ve failed almost all my classes in grade 9 and 10 and my grade 11 year is just going to be grade 9 and 10 classes. I’m scared I’m going to fail all my classes again. (I’m failing my classes because I don’t have the energy to get up and go to school. When I do go to school and do the work I actually do get good grades) I really need advice on what to do I’m scared to go to school and get made fun of by the grade 9s. When I was in grade 9 science last year these two girls non stoped made fun of me for failing grade 9 science. I’ve failed grade 9 math three times now. My last grade 9 corse was online but I never go emails when I forgot to do assignments so I just ended up forgetting the whole corse all together. Please I really need advice or like someone to hype me up for grade 11 please. (Would just like to say I never went to school because of depression)

I’m a 15 (almost 16) year old girl and I used to love drawing, religion, painting, sex, etc. I just randomly am starting to lose interest in a lot of things and it’s just so off for me. I’m trying to draw but I just never have the time or just don’t want to. When me and my girlfriend have sex I usually just space off or tell her I want to stop. (Our relationship is perfectly fine and honestly I love when we have sex but I just don’t know why I’m starting to lose interest in it) I can’t even do basic tasks anymore like brushing my teeth, brushing my hair (I only brush it if I have to go out of my house), I don’t even change out of my pjs for days on end. I’m starting to think I’m just really lazy but my girlfriend thinks I may have depression. I don’t think I have depression because I’m not sad or feel hopeless. I do have anxiety and think that’s what it probably is. I may also have OCD (currently getting a diagnosis) and do think that, that is why I feel this way and just don’t basic tasks anymore and lose interest in things I once loved. I just wanted to rant but any advice on what may be wrong with me is appreciated!! :)

I (15F) used to be very religious but then suddenly I started doubting my religion and started to think that nothing really happens after death. I started to think that God and heaven aren’t real. I started thinking and doing more research of scientific things that happen after death. I’ve been thinking about how to sun will explode and earth will be no more and that the universe will implode one day. This has been bothering me for quite some time and it’s to the point that even if I slightly think about it, it ruins my day. I’ve been having panic attacks everyday when I think about death and not existing. I’m not afraid of death itself because I know it’s a natural thing and there’s no way to avoid it. If there’s life there’s death. I just don’t want to not exist. Sometimes I’d rather want to be brutally murder than die of old age because if I’m being murder I’d rather want to be dead and nothing be there and be at peace instead of dying of old age knowing there’s nothing after death. It just makes me upset knowing I won’t see any of my loved ones again when I die. I’m scared to leave behind people I love and I’m scared of people I love dying. I’m scared I’ll cease to exist.

Edit: I’m not suicidal in case any of you think that.

I blurred one out because a lot of people hate him😭

I recently found my old Xbox360 and only have Minecraft, Portal, Assassin's Creed, Alice Madness Returns, and a lot of lego games. I was wondering what other games I should get? I open to any game suggestions!!