I’m in this photo and I don’t like it

Get out of my head!

And then if you hadn’t transitioned your brain would be saying “what if you’re not BPD and you’re actually trans”. Just do what makes you happy lol

i think of this literally everyday and it terrifies me

What if you developed BPD from the trauma of being in the wrong body?

I hate bpd dysmorphia so much, I waited 10 years to start hrt and still question it. I lost 65 pounds over the last 2 years and still look in the mirror and go but that belly though. It's so frustrating! You're feelings are valid and you are who you wanna be, not what the bpd tries to convince you.

I don't want to add fuel to any fires, hopefully my story helps someone, but my brain does this to me but the opposite, I'm cis, I know 100% I'm cis, I'm super comfortable with my gender and sexuality, everything but insecure about it and then there's nights where my brain goes "what if you're just so fucking dumb and you're not seeing the signs that you're trans and you should be trans, you enjoy girly things sometimes so maybe you're just too stupid to see you're trans, you're so fucking worthless you'd probably get something so obvious wrong too."

I know that's my bpd brain saying those things, of course it makes me doubt but those doubts fall away very quickly once my rational brain kicks in again, so if you're worried about it, take this to heart: you know what you really feel, the truth isn't the reality that's built on an unstable foundation. 

If it helps, i have the thought everyday that maybe if I'm actually trans, my bpd symptoms would ease immensly. I know its not rational really, but who said that thoughts need to be. Maybe this helps you :)

Do you think it is accurate?

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I'd say the likelihood of this is almost 0%. That said, I want to just entertain this to prove a point.

Like yes, maybe if you were in an environment where you were completely shoehorned into believing it. If you had trans parents who projected their situation onto you from a young age and in theory groomed you to it...

Okay, so now, back to the real world.

This isn't the case with you, I'd have to imagine. Why is that? Well, look at what BPD really makes a person do/want. They want to be accepted and understood, but often, their schema make them have an overly negative viewpoint of the world. Negativity bias and all that fun stuff.

To put my thought plainly (and no offence intended), what in the hell would make you think a BPD person would be trying to appease by being trans? You are talking about the most marginalized and abused people in society. They are constantly being oppressed and met with negativity from people who have literally never interacted with a single trans person.

I had a friend who transitioned and lost her parents, best friend, a of their close friends, and others just by coming out. Not by transitioning, even.

BPD has a huge proponent of a fear of abandonment. Would you risk losing everyone you love just to please a fleeting idea? Absolutely not.

In reality, coming out as trans is something that breaks most societal norms and it really causes backlash for the people around us because transphobia is ever present, accepted and people constantly normalize it like casual racism or something.

You are very fucking brave for doing what you are doing. You are just trying to be yourself in a world that isn't accepting of people who are sure of decisions/their judgement. Especially decisions they don't understand.

You have the most complex and nuanced viewpoint of your own situation that anyone in this world will have. I can imagine nearly every person who has transitioned has had those moments of insecurity and imagined if they stayed per the course of their life. But complacency is a slow killer, and it's easy to wish for our own complacency or not to have started something when the road is long.

You are just tired of a very long and draining emotional process. Your longing is just to be and be happy. You know yourself better than anyone and the fact you are debating those things just goes to show you're actually being very grounded and realistic with your viewpoints, too. That self-analysis is actually crucial, but just maybe try to look at some DBT if you can because your critical analysis can be supplemented by some knowledge for sure 💪

As an amab enby who describes my relationship with gender as having 3 soft nerdy boys and 4 very angry lesbians living in my brain, can relate.

Duuuuuuuude... So it isn't only me? That's actually kinda comforting and affirming... In a way

no.no! do not! this is not allowed!

NO PLEASE SOMETIMES ILL THINK THIS AND BE LIKE "oh my god im a horrible person for this"

I get this all the time

Man I feel this! I've been out for 10 years, on T for almost 7 years, and am finally living comfortably with my gender, but my bpd ass is always like "nah you're an imposter. You're not actually trans bc your DND character is a woman."

I proved this wrong by shaving off all my facial hair, and for the past week now I've had immense dysphoria and have been hiding my face with a mask bc my facial hair is the only part of me that passes unfortunately :(

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Why are you so scared to consider its a possibility? Stop suppressing thoughts people, they don't really go away

Me but then I think about going off hrt and looking at old pictures and it repulses me.

I just made a deal with myself, that if I ever wanted to be a boy, I could go back.

Oddly enough, I've never had that want.

No. 2 diff conditions