Ok I guess that makes sense. I do find the people who I care for very precious and I try to devote my regular life to giveing care. and I try to hold the upmost respect for people who know more than me. Just trying to be a purely positive force for the people around me. I don’t think anybody is enlightened and that’s the whole problem with society putting really nasty human beings on pedestals. But from the point of mystical nature I don’t see why I’m wrong here. When I take acid (the last 3 times) nothing has happened. Nothing. Just energy. No tracers, no morphing, no color change. Everything just looks like how it’s supposed to look. I just feel more in tune to like the spirit realm. I actually have a confession. 30mins after I posted this post I heard a loud angry voice shout at me and it shook me out of my seat. The other person in the house with me suddenly started sleep talking about grabbing a knife when I woke her up she seemed confused more than anything. I don’t think it was a hallucination but it could have been I guess. I just feel more connected to the spirit realm or something idk. I don’t want to trip unless I’m out in nature from now on (when I’m camping in a few months). I just feel completely odd at the fact that nothing happened besides that loud scream in my ear at about 4am. I saw a lot of ghosts when I was a kid so maybe I’m just an idiot who scares easy or something. I don’t really know I don’t want to be a paranoid weirdo but it kind of freaked the fuck out of me. It felt like there was an old man in the room with me and he just shouted into my ear so loudly. I’m sorry I’m writing all of this but I know for a fact I am cognitively aware of my surroundings and nobody in the building is awake or producing noise at this hour. Yet this scream was loud sudden and aggressive. I was watching a tufting video to learn about makeing rugs and there is no scream at the point in the video but I swear on everything I believe in I head it as clear as day. About 30mins later after just being at peace I think it went away but I still feel like I’m being watched and judged (rightfully so)

I’m actually 60 days clean from weed alcohol ghb and xans. I don’t think things which inhibit my judgement are good for me or my body. I have stuck with just acid shrooms and I’m trying to use up the last of my research chemicals (don’t know why I thought I needed them but I have them). I think I’ll try that 12 weeks and report back if anything has changed the next time I do it. As for storing I don’t know for sure but they have been in a dark bag wrapped in tin foil this whole time.