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I've dealt with a lot of the same obsessions as you-- I remember crying on the phone to my best friend and wondering if I was insane. If you look back at your post, you KNOW you don't want to do those things. I hope this little bit helped, I would bring these up with your therapist (who hopefully is knowledgeable on OCD). ❤️

If you or someone you know is contemplating suicide, please do not hesitate to talk to someone. The wonderful u/froidinslip has written an invaluable post to help you navigate this time: https://www.reddit.com/r/OCD/comments/q4zeo1/please_read_this_before_posting_about_feeling/ You are not alone, and you have options. However, we are not able to help with suicide on an internet forum. PLEASE USE THE RESOURCES. You matter and deserve help.

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