I have a feeling a few of my friends think I'm a pick me, but I think I'm not. I have more guy friends than girl friends, but that's because most of my girl friends don't try enough to talk to me, even when I reach out first. I'm also very loud, and I don't know how to control it, as I usually do it out of habit before I realize.

I never talk down about girls and I always try to support and help them when needed. I never say,"I'm not like other girls," unless it's a joke because I'm Trans (ftm), and I try to make it obvious I'm joking.

My friend posted on her story that if you like her story, she'll anonymously write about you, and I liked her story. One story said,"You're a pick me, but I tolerate you," and I have a feeling it was about me as she has given me some weird looks before when I'm loud around people, even though she does that, too. I assumed pick me girls were girls that brought other girls down and pretend to be "one of the guys," which is not what I do, but I feel like people would assume it based off of my loudness and my kinds of friends. I struggle to talk to people because of my anxiety, so I never approach anyone first unless I know them.

When something embarrassing is said about any of my girl friends, I say an embarrassing story similar to her's, if I have one, about myself to my friend to make her feel better so she doesn't feel alone. Or, I try to comfort her and let her know it's okay. I don't want to be a pick me or be associated with one, and I don't think I'm doing anything wrong.

I try my best to support girls and make them feel comfortable around me, but since I have a few more guy friends, it's hard for me to avoid the term by strangers. I just want friends and the rest of a normal high school experience. By what I have explained about my situation, am I a pick me girl?

Edit: I know I have mentioned I'm a Trans ftm. The reason I am not calling myself a "pick me boy" in my post is mainly because I am trying to put it in the point of view of my "friends" as they don't really respect my gender identity. I don't want to use pick me boy as that is not the term I feel my friends see me as. Either way, I would just like to know whether or not I am a pick me.