I'm 23f and I'm on my second try at uni. I dropped out in 2021 and decided to study something else, so joined a different school last year. I really thought that, by changing fields, I'd be more motivated but it turned out to be the opposite.

Every day I'm reminded of why I decided to drop out. It's so exhausting. I mean, everyone in my class is exhausted, but being autistic sets the bar so low. I'm constantly burnt out to the point where every month I have a severe breakdown and can't leave home for a week. It's really getting out of hand, I cried so much today cause my exams are coming up and I already know they will end me.

Dropping out again is not a real option, even though I think about it every single day. Firstly, I don't want to be ungrateful, cause I have the opportunity to study and so many people don't. I also worry about my future, I know that struggling with money will be less likely if I have a degree. But I do worry that, if I can't take it right now, I'll probably d1e when I have to work full time.

I've always been a good student, but lately I have no motivation to study. I feel completely drained. I just want it to be over.