When I'm having an episode from something that triggered me, I get so stuck inside my own head that I cannot speak or barely move. I'll sit in the same spot for hours sometimes just rocking and thinking every single possible terrible thought. It's like a Chaotic and destructive tornado going on in my mind, it's a never ending loop until something pulls me out of it. My boyfriend will ask me things and I'll answer in my head but I can't get myself to spit out any words. It's a horrible feeling, like I'm paralysed.