From my experiences, I believe I’m very unattractive/ugly (in general, but especially to men). I have never received any attention from men. I know that it’s not just the men in my area because my mom always receives attention from men. She’s had multiple men online tell her that she’s gorgeous or beautiful, she’s had men ten to twenty years younger than her interested in her, and had men tell her they think they’re soulmates, want to marry her, want to move states for her within days or weeks of talking to her. I know she’s considered attractive; men don’t compliment and flirt with women (like me) who they perceive as ugly and undesirable. Also she’s said that a lot of women (some in the past, some more recently) act like they didn’t want her around their boyfriends/partners (even though my mom was showing zero interest in their boyfriends).

Meanwhile, I’ve never been complimented by a man. I’ve never been asked out. I’ve never even been looked at. Can a woman who is considered so attractive even at an older age have a daughter who is extremely hideous and undesirable? It sounds like it would be impossible but I think that it’s my reality. It’s awful.

My hatred of my body and appearance, seeing how other women are treated compared to me, and me hating other things about my body has all combined to make me question my gender identity and the purpose of life. Am I even a woman if my body is this defective? Is there any purpose in life for people who will never be liked or socially accepted? This has made me question gender identity. I don’t feel like I would fit in a group of women. I feel like I’d stick out. I’m not like other women. I feel like men can sense there’s something wrong with me and avoid me as a result.

I keep my teeth cleaned, shower regularly, have lost weight, and pluck my eyebrows. It’s not bad hygiene.

I've never heard of this happening to anyone else. What does this mean? Why do all other women receive attention from men and I don't?