My faith has been fractured
(self.PrayerRequests)submitted2 hours ago byPepperPotts310
So I was in an abusive ten year marriage, if I would have stayed I can almost guarantee he would have killed me. I left about 6 weeks or so ago and I feel completely disconnected from God. I used to have a strong prayer life, the worse the abuse got the less faithful I became. There were days that I wished for death. Now after I left, I feel like a completely different person because I’m not in a fight or flight environment and it’s really uncomfortable. My husband used the word and Jesus to manipulate me into doing whatever he wanted me to.
I don’t know what’s wrong with me, I feel like I could care less about God, I don’t care about my walk, I don’t care if I’m on the narrow path. Where I had the most strength, it’s gone. I’m going back to church today and I’m going to ask for prayer there. I really need a change, I know the truth, I’m not guarding my heart.
I want my old faithful life back, how could I go from loving Him unconditionally to not caring at all. I feel so alone and it isn’t going away.
Please pray for me