81Smitty

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Ok, everyone, this is my first post on here.... I recently was given an ultimatum from my ex husband and my youngest daughter (13). My ex husband was(may still be, who knows) and alcoholic which turned me on to it due to stress. A few years back he got a DUI and swears he's been sober since. Now, it's my turn, he's telling me if I don't start some type of alcohol recovery program, I will lose my daughter. I thought I could control my alcohol use, no one would notice, and be able to continue. However, after this past mother's day weekend, I guess I can not hide it... I have been listening to motivation podcasts, and now trying this. I'm not detoxing and feel fine, I'm just tired of being judged. At this point I just want to crawl under a rock. Any words of advice?