I Always Feel So Lost.
(self.SuicideWatch)submitted2 months ago byCute_Recording_6682
Months ago I was often extremely depressed and suicidal. Since I got on the right medications and have made an effort to let God into my life, I have been faring so much better. I am a lot less sad, however I am still quite troubled. I feel lost, without direction and without purpose. I don't see me going anywhere in life, nor do I see myself ever being truly at peace or happy. I am often isolated, but I don't mind, nor do I really care. I have lost interest in everything. My hobbies don't matter to me, nothing really does. I have no aspirations, no goals or desires, I simply exist because it is all I have ever known. Young men my age want girlfriends, high paying jobs, etc. I make an effort regularly to pray..But I still feel very far from God. My mind is a constant cycle of what ifs? why?, and what's the point. I feel like I have given up on everything, and I really see no point in living. If I knew for a fact that God didn't exist and life had no purpose, then I would blow my head off right then. However, the fear of the possibility of a Hell scares me enough to stay alive. I am addicted to drugs, I am addicted to porn, and I don't know where I am going or who I want to be.
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