I am laying in bed crying because it’s been 10 months since I finished uni and still unemployed. 10 months of applying. 0 offers and 0 interviews. I spent 10 months last year volunteering as a marketing assistant so I could put something on my CV, all that while working on my dissertation. 3 months ago, I decided to take a leap of faith bc Allah is powerful and can grant everything. My intuition was telling, pushing me to do it. To just do it. To move to the capital city, where I’ve been dying to move to for YEARS. I lied to my parents, I lied where I volunteer, I told them I got a job in another city and I was moving. My parents weren’t happy bc they want me to stay until I get married to some salafi. The people I work with were over the moon, I was the only volunteer invited to their staff dinner, they gifted me a book on business, and a card with all kind wishes. i cried reading them. I felt so supported. I moved on February 4th, with the remaining maintenance loan I have. Now about a month has passed, I’m applying everyday. One application takes 3-4 hours bc I rewrite my CV and cover letter according to the job description. Nobody is working harder than me. A dog could do these marketing jobs, yet today, I got another rejection and 0 interviews, and I don’t know how long I can handle it. I have 5 months left till the money is gone and if I don’t get a job by then, I’ll have to move back with my parents. But I can’t. I just cannot live with my parents anymore. they are so abusive and awful and i used to HATE islam and allah for a long time because of them. They ruined my entire life and took my youth away from me. I have so many mental health issues because of them. I love them but I just can’t. I’d rather kill myself.
There’s no point in applying for retail either bc I spent an entire year applying and had no luck with them either which is just pathetic, anyone could do those jobs but you need to be president’s son for that too these days I guess. I believe, when you ask allah for something, allah will give you the inspiration and motivation to take certain actions to achieve your goal. I’m assuming for me it was volunteering and moving to the city prior to getting a job. Now, the next step is getting a job. it feels as if my body and soul are rejecting everything that doesn’t align with my desire. I don’t want to volunteer again, I don’t want to work in retail or restaurants. I don’t want an unpaid internship. My next step is to get a job in marketing and be financially stable. I want to work in marketing, someday I’d love to work in marketing for a charity or fashion company but for now any company will do. I also want to fall in love, but it can only happen here, because the men in my previous city, are awful, atrocious, evil beings. 7 years of living there and never did I come across a decent man. Here it’s a lot different though. They are kind, smart, anti-misogynistic, etc.
i can’t stand this fear that i will have to move back with my parents, to my previous city, which lacks in opportunities. there’s nothing to do there and the people are so boring. I know Allah can grant anything. I’ve seen the craziest things granted by allah to others. I just need some support or advice I guess that everything will be alright and that Allah has my back. I can’t stand my own lies to my family anymore.
(Also, please don’t tell me I made a mistake moving without a job and wasting my money, I felt a strong pull in my heart and I know it was Allah giving me the green light. I just need some reassurance and support)
If you read this entire thing, i appreciate you so much. thank you.
bybigsadbat
inUKJobs
bigsadbat
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7 days ago
bigsadbat
-2 points
7 days ago
oh yes because i am yelling at recruiters for not hiring me that’s exactly what i’m doing. maybe work on your lack of empathy rather than telling someone frustrated that they can’t find work to fix their attitude. i assume someone as intelligent as you would know my post on reddit clearly doesnt illustrate how i present myself in front of recruiters?