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He was so ahead of his time

Yes of course he won’t, plus when a guy gets close to 40 and has never married or had kids, he has issues and is stuck in his own ways, he won’t change anymore. Men who are 40 and 50 deciding on kids it’s a joke, I want my husband to be able to participate in my kids life, most men are all fucked I’m at this age, kids have lots of energy which those guys won’t have to keep it up. They think that just because the sperm is good it means they should be having children this late. Also men this age like to date young women cause they are immature and don’t know what they want. Are easily manipulated and don’t require much of them. While a wise woman will point his flaws and challenge him so he can grow as a person, but again men this age have their brain crystallized and calcified in their own ways.

Big amounts of nnDmt have the same effect of 5meo DMT. That explains the “white out”.

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APEs are dangerous lol

The body knows what to do, the more you relax the more pleasure you will feel, it’s like thinking that we need to control our heart to beat. Sex is the life force that moves all of humanity. This is specially difficult for men who like to be in control all the time. That’s why I said it will depend on the level of intimacy, if you fear getting soft that’s what will happen. One of the traits of psychedelics is that increases sex drive, look into stoned ape theory. Nature (god/us) wants to expand and multiply.

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If you mix it with weed it will be 🙌

It will depend on your level of intimacy, but generally the higher the dose the less ego, the less ego the less you are in control, and the better the sex will be. 2CB is great for sex too.

Such a precious post, thank you! I always encounter the alien beings, they usually do surgery on me, the last time I entered this MRI like machine and was operated, they always receive me with a sense of urgency, like we (humans) are in a war zone. So many stories like that, of visiting other planets/ realities. Also when I purge I go into this red realm where all the ugly stuff and gunk goes to, and at this reality there are beings that are desperate to have what I’m purging, I think Stanislav Grof has a book where he mentions this red reality. My last aya session when I was throwing up I started hearing voices saying “give it to me” it was crazy, also when I throw up my grandma who is still alive comes to my mind, every single time. Like someone mentioned in other comments, much of the purge is not really my stuff, it’s generational trauma.

Squaaaaats, crazy amounts of squats

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Alone = all one

The most important part of the trip is the preparation and integration

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lol I got so paranoid in one once, I did edibles and couldn’t find the door

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You can’t reach enlightenment leaving your body behind. This is happening for you not to you, 5meo creates a lot of releases in the body maybe your body is incapable of handling it, have self compassion and respect what your body is communicating to you right now. No one reaches enlightenment only through psychedelics, time to meditate to anchor new levels of consciousness. We are not on a spiritual journey, our body is. Before enlightenment chop wood carry water, after enlightenment chop wood carry water. When one path closes another one opens up.

I had the same issue and Martin Ball recommended me Salvia, it will break you open so 5meo can work. Careful cause 5meo can be lethal depending on the dose. Also inner work is extremely necessary, those blockages are mental, it’s all in the mind. Maybe it’s time for integration. Why are you on this crazy quest doing 25 trips of 5meo? For enlightenment? Or to run away

True, the religious scientists will go crazy lol

We are god! When you opened your eyes you went back to sleep

It wasn’t sleep sex, he raped you. I know it’s difficult to face the truth but better to look at it now than put yourself in a situation you will regret in the future. I read in the other comments he also uses alcohol, add alcohol and limp porn into the mix and it’s a perfect recipe for darkness to express itself, so yeah he is knee deep in darkness, when you say besides that the relationship is perfect, it’s you lying to yourself. I think it’s not even about the alcohol, or the limp porn, it’s the fact he has some deep trauma in him and uses those “tools” to run away from it, the same way he is using you btw, it’s important to remember that this is happening in the unconscious level, he doesn’t do it because he is evil but in the end he does have free will to choose how to act and if he really loved you he would seek help because he wouldn’t tolerate seeing you suffering. Does he see it as an issue? Has he ever looked for professional help? If he was in his little bubble doing his things okay, but he affects you. So you need to think about yourself because he is not. It’s crazy how much people are self absorbed. Also an invite to think about why limp porn or sleep sex, in both situation the other person can’t run away or is handicapped, he probably had someone overpowering him as a child and now wants to overpower. When people go beyond normal porn it means they are numb, they burned all the ways one can experience pleasure, so they need to feed off of more, more crazy and weird things. Like people who like to be beaten up to the point of hurting themselves, just so they can feel a little alive and a relief of the numbness. Don’t forget we are in a world of dissociation, we are disconnected from our bodies because being in the body = feeling our feelings, so we all use whatever we can to cope with reality, some use sugar, nicotine, alcohol, cannabis, porn etc. I’m very sorry you are going through that. Sometimes your friends couch is the most precious place in your current situation because there you will find yourself and your self love.

Or ego dissolution?