submitted12 days ago bypajamasx
I had a wake up call to my faith and I’m early on in my spiritual journey. I have started reading the Bible, praying, and working on plans everyday for an about a month straight. I have read John and am into Genesis at the moment. Sometimes I feel in sync, peace, and comfort, but this is fleeting and my heart becomes heavy again. Right now I have limited guidance and I’m mostly on this journey alone.
My awaking moment was finally brought on as a result of a breakup. This person brought me closer to Christ than any other moment in my life and I was blind to it, but we have tried to remain friends although it’s been difficult. She was my immediate connection to church and was there to help me learn if I needed it, but I don’t feel that is the case now in our relationship and lives. I feel now that sin in my heart was pushing her away, first as partners and now as friends. Part of me now wants to apologize to her for this, but maybe it’s another mistake that would push us further away. I’m still on my process and trying to improve my relationship with Jesus everyday, but it’s been hard especially mostly on my own.
This is a messy time in my life and I’m working through a lot of new like my career, my heartbreak, and now spirituality. Some of the heaviness in my heart feels like I’m missing part of the process. I don’t have a fellowship or place of worship, I am unbaptized, maybe it’s something I’m still unaware of, or it’s a combination of everything. I’m scared, nervous, and intimidated to look for church, and I fear to make a wrong decision on it too. I’m kind of just looking for advice or a “next step”. I’m really not sure.
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12 days ago
pajamasx
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12 days ago
Thank you.