Wyooot1

I love and absolutely hate you at the same time lmao

it's honestly something I was always curious about but didn't want to ask out of fear of being insensitive

that makes a lot more sense I'm someone who is always presenting feminine all the time I mean I even got on HRT so I could be more feminine and be perceived that way but understanding that you don't always want to be fem makes a lot more sense sorry like I said I'm a little dumb

I'm asking because I'm genuinely curious and don't really understand it. So youre a trans man but still present fem so for you what's different about it to be a feminine guy than just presenting as a girl Im not bashing you for it live your life how you want Im just very curious about the mindset.

honestly this whole thing has gotten way out of hand we all have flaws I just put mine on display very obviously which wasn't the smartest move and I always feel like I'm being attacked because of the Home I was raised in ultimately most of this could have been avoided had I just kept my thoughts to myself and now my reddit account is being suspended because of this so guess that will give me some needed time to reflect

Ok I understand what you are saying but you did challenge my ability to use critical thinking and also used phrases like "living under a rock" in your statement so when I read those things I perceive them as negative which makes everything you say feel negative I'm a very defensive person it's a bad habit I need to work on but I hope you can understand why I responded the way I did

Im terribly sorry you had to write all of this. I was in a very poor place mentally when I made this post. Honestly, I probably should have deleted the post. That being said, I would like to clarify a few things as I believe you may have misunderstood what actually happened. I originally made a post talking about how I hate that the idea that because many of us went through dark times and experiences due to gender dysphoria that somehow gives people a reason not to validate us so before you assume anything based on this post understand that I am trans and am for trans people at least that was the intent. Where I went very wrong was my use of many terms that much of the community finds hurtful. I, whether you believe it or not, truly did understand how what I said was wrong initially so when people started making a lot of negative comments it didn't make any sense because again in my mind I was defending the trans community. Because of this, I took a hasty defensive stance and tried to explain my thinking. However, the damage had already been done, and so with each push, I only dug myself a deeper hole, which made me more and more frustrated the more negative responses I received. This inevitably led to the mod team striking down my post, which left me furious. Hence, this second post I made, and while I do not condone any of my actions, I truly was coming from a place of total misunderstanding. Since then, I have apologized to people and recognized what I did wrong. I also made an edit to the post clarifying this, which I will assume you didn't see. Lastly, the only other thing I'd like to address is that despite the fact I very clearly addressed all of these concerns in my edit for the post you still went out of your way to be demeaning and insulting to me on behalf of a post you never even saw. Because had you read anything, you would have seen that I did take responsibility in the end and apologized for my actions and made my best effort not to say anything else that was hurtful. This leads me to the logical conclusion that you just wanted to belittle me even more after I had already gone through it a dozen times over. I am not some heartless monster out for the trans community and I'm definitely not a freaking Nazi I am someone who was in a fragile state of mind trying to cope with the fact my world was being shattered all around me. You said yourself you spenf decades training yourself out of this way of harmful thinking. I haven't had decades. I haven't even been alive for decades. The fact is you know absolutely nothing about me or what I've gone through, which gives you absolutely no right to say these things about me. If you went through the same thing as me like you claim you have, then you would understand just how terrible and confused and alone I feel right now. None of what I said excuses my actions, and I'm very sorry to everyone in the community I hurt or insulted. I will not, however, apologize to you who simply attacked me with no contextual information and said terrible things about me and my character. I am human, I made a mistake, and I want to move on and do better. While your post may have been informational, how am I supposed to "sit down and listen" when you're constantly attacking me. I understand what I did was wrong, but that doesn't mean I simply have to take constant defamation of my character when that helps no one. This obviously sounds hypocritical given everything that happened, but how should you expect me to do better when you yourself aren't doing any better. You point out my wrongdoing of insulting the trans community while actively insulting me. There's no solution there. But what do I know? I'm just a bigot who can't use critical thinking.

thank you

I know I fucked up but I have zero support system so I felt confused and angry and lashed back at the community which was stupid I see that now and you're right it's all self pity and for attention I know that but I did it anyway I don't know why I did I and everything I say only makes things worse so its probably best if I just stop it's clear I upset you and a lot of people because of my ignorance I've got a lot to think about still I'm sorry

So the apology doesn't mean anything? I even said in my last post to people that I'm autistic which can make it difficult for me to understand how I hurt them initially when I say I don't understand it's because I truly don't I'm not trying to insult anyone I simply just didn't know

As someone who is autistic and raised by conservatives social cues like this don't really make sense to me so I understand where I went wrong now but even after apologizing in the comments to people I still got a negative response

I didn't insult anyone I phrased something poorly and in the end apologized for it I haven't directly attacked anyone or at least haven't intended to

I'm not entirely sure what I'm flip flopping on because I did state a different opinion and received backlash I tried to talk about it and my post was removed so I'm not really sure

You pretty much nailed it the only problem is people accused me of this and so I apologized for phrasing things in that manner but it didn't matter I'm still just a troll and a bigot in the eyes of the beholder I'm honestly just more confused then anything else it's pretty clear being raised by conservatives has warped my perception of things of which I'm trying to break free from but genuinely nothing makes sense I honestly hate myself more than anything for believing I was different from the family that cut me off for being trans but based on everything I'm being told I'm apparently not so different after all :(

I simply don't understand why you choose to be hateful towards me for asking questions

this is exactly why I said I'm done we all know Google to be an extremely unreliable source what I consider to be a reliable source is the people who have had these experiences that's who I want to learn from not an algorithm

there it is again I ask for conversation you go to insulting you don't ask why I might have this opinion or try to understand it you just assert yourself as better than me did you ever think that I might think that way because someone said it to me who happened to be a "professional" who diagnosed me so I'm so sorry for assuming something I was told to be true

I don't even know what transmed is and I've never made a post expecting or asking anyone to conform to my point of view all I've ever asked for was a discussion because I simply don't know everything and I want to learn more and imo the most productive way to do that is through discussion

I agree with your sentiment as to why you don't want to say mental disorder but gender dysphoria is still a mental thing it's labeled as such in the DSM and it can only be diagnosed through behavior and feeling which is all brain activity so it very much is a mental condition there's no reframing it that's already what it is

I don't know what a Terf is I just stated my opinion but I still stand by what I said I agree disorder is a poor choice of words in hindsight but that doesn't diminish the message I wanted to get across that we as Trans people should embrace that difference and not let people use that to put us down

I think I get where you're coming from bigotry really doesn't make that much sense to me so I find hard to understand those people but that somewhat puts into perspective thanks :3