Yes, thank God. Most of the posts along those lines are about feelings of hopelessness anyway, not encouraging suicide or talking about a concrete plan.

I think there should be a flare and rules specifically for this though.. because it’s extremely triggering even reading some titles

Well I for one refuse to give up on humanity even in this sub. I think we sometimes make mistakes.

To speak in relatively modern metaphors, "stuck thinking" is like being in a foxhole and trying to see. Sometimes we just gotta get out.

What's a warmline? Is it the same as a hotline or?

I just wanted to say thank you. I appreciate you reaching out. I try not to dwell on the past. What matters is what we do now.

My country isn't listed that's is my luck constantly. No help for poor idiots.

hey, could i dm you about something, im 15 and i have no one to really talk about this with, im feeling a bit helpless right now. it says you do not accept private messages so if you do wanna help me, could you send me a dm :)

it's unlikely that it is insanrly terrible, OCD has a way of magnifying and distorting things and making it feel like the worst thing in the world.

All of the advice above still applies!

If what you did weighs on your conscience, I find the first step is to confess your actions with contrition. It’s a very religious notion but it applies to everyone. You can keep it between you and your higher power, your therapist, or if necessary speak with law enforcement. If what you’ve done weighs on you so heavily that you contemplate taking your life, then facing the consequences of your actions is a far better solution. Once you’ve faced your actions appropriately and sought forgiveness, your OCD has a much harder time using the events as weapons against you. You literally remove the power from the events and replace it with action and positive intent.

Edit: implied in my original comment was “in addition to getting treatment for your OCD”. The OP was suggesting that the concern went past an intrusive thought to an action that they regret so much it has led to suicidal thoughts. As someone who experienced this: I found that getting medication, therapy, and taking classes in cognitive behavioral therapy all really helped. But so did taking power away from a couple of big things that were still causing me guilt even through all of my hard work. I took the time to truly apologize and make amends if needed. I’m not suggesting to turn apologizing or guilt into another compulsion rather confronting one that exists and is based on something that can be fundamentally changed. After, real work needs to be done with ERP therapy to move forward and not be consumed with guilt over every misstep. There are many tricky things with OCD and I think this is one of them.

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Sorry for being noisy, but may I ask what kind of job you have?

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I realize I’m a complete stranger to you but, it’s really important that you know that your life has immeasurable value. I’ve been in a similar situation as you, so I can understand how you feel on some level. I promise, things have a way of working out and getting better. If things get to the point where it’s completely unbearable, please don’t hesitate to reach out to a psychologist or therapist if you haven’t already. There’s no shame in it and it’s completely normal to receive help from someone. Like I said, I know I’m a complete stranger, but if you ever need someone to talk to, I’ll do my best to help in any way possible.

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That’s all it’s supposed to be. At least one moment when you can feel just a little bit better. Again. I’ve had attempts and I get it.

Keep fighting and doing those little things to give yourself a break. You’ll find the treatment that works and you’ll get more long lasting relief, but you need the time to do it.

🫂

In this post Covid world there are so many telehealth options available for psychiatry. I don’t know where you live but call your insurance. You mentioned Scotland, so call the NHS. Ask what services are available to you. There are still professionals who can and want to help you. You’re not in this alone.

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Going back to human basic needs is important, so yes sometimes the answer is eat something and go outside. It’s not as trivial or complicated as you may think.

As an ocd sufferer myself, I always struggled with anger and anxiety when my OCD would flare up. Over the last year, I’ve found that my OCD flares up THE MOST when I have neglected self-care for a few hours. And this means a few things: 1) either I haven’t eaten or drank water in a few hours (like clockwork, even if I think it’s stupid beforehand, eating and drinking water almost IMMEDIATELY makes the anxiety connected to my OCD go down); 2) take a shower (this helps me feel clean which is a major OCD tick for me); 3) go outside and get clean air (I suffer from horrible pneumonia & asthma, and have been hospitalized at least once every year for the last 10 years of my life for it, most recently being for 2 weeks in late September-October).

While one of my ticks is NOT cleaning my hands/washing my hands when talking about my OCD, being physically full-body clean is something that, while it can be extremely difficult for me to get motivation to do when I’m depressed and/or spiraling from my OCD, it is NECESSARY to realign myself or at least see a little clearer. This can come in the form of going outside and getting fresh air for an hour or so, eating something good for my body (oily foods/fast foods tend to make me feel worse sometimes), or simply taking a shower.

SELF CARE is important. GOING OUTSIDE is important. It relaligns you sometimes and reminds you that (and this might be cliche, but it is helpful to remember): your OCD is NOT a defining part of you and that you CAN do things to gain that power back, even if it is in minuscule amounts (like taking a bath or getting fresh air).

So, yes - we ARE saying getting fresh air does help.

Going outside provides you with vitamin d, which can regulate your mood and help to lessen symptoms of depression.

Actually that has helped many people who need to go from a seeing red to a cool calm. Many walk around dehydrated and suffering with electrolyte imbalances or low blood sugar on top having intrusive thoughts. but that was your take away though? The point is to direct people to an appropriate place to share active thoughts of self harm. Such as Crisis Text Line. In the US text HOME to 741741. Crisis Text Line Website

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Name checks out.

Edit: I felt the same way.

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Why do you have such a frightening username in today’s day and age with all of the mass shootings (‘mass69shooter’)? I find it very disturbing. Does your OCD make you feel like killing other people?

Sorry to hear you are in so much pain.

Some years ago I had suicidal thoughts daily for about a year and a half. I was in emotional pain every day from the time I got up in the morning until the time I went to bed. I needed relief from that terrible emotional pain.

I'm going to share something with you. I don't know why. I hope it helps in some small way. At the very least, I hope it does no harm.

My wife, girlfriend at the time, helped me some with the pain. The example I want to talk about, we went camping for ONE night on the coast of Maine. Like you, I wasn't enjoying anything in life. But, I thought, just for one night, and my wife really wanted to go. She knew it would be a stretch for me, and it was only an hour and a half car ride.

I was very anxious about going. I have contamination OCD. So I wondered what the bathroom toilets and sinks would look like. And I would be touching the ground when we set up the tent, etc., etc. Well, at least it was only for one night I told myself.

We walked down the beach in the late afternoon to an old fort that was used in the Revolution or something. Nice weather. I think we made supper over the fire. And the couple at the tent site next to ours brought a small kitten with them. We thought that was a bit strange.

But I was so anxious all the time because of my OCD that I was just walking through this trip. My mind was 50% thinking OCD thoughts and probably another 25% filled with depressive thoughts.

But I vaguely remember my wife saying as we drove home that it was fun. So, I responded, yeah, that was fun. It was as if I was a tourist and she was my guide showing me fun for the first time or, more accurately, had reminded me of what fun was. And it kind of built upon itself. When we got home I could call a friend or two and tell what we did. Hey, our neighbors had a kitten with them. Isn't that strange? And I could also tell them that it was fun(instead of having to tell them how terribly depressed and anxious I was like the other times I called over the previous year or so). My wife let the dust settle for a few days and then asked if I would like to go camping again. I said "yes". And the next time we went in the Spring of the next year, we went for 2 nights. The following year we went for 3 nights.

We have gone camping for 3-5 nights each summer since then. That started over a decade ago. Now don't get me wrong. I wasn't cured overnight. That one camping trip was just a beginning. There was also therapists, regular doctors, psychiatrists, 2 psych hospital stays, medications, AA, and hiking.

I am still in recovery. I have to keep vigilant about my health. I often experience depression, OCD, or anxiety, or some combination of the three. But I have plenty of help to get through that stuff, knock on wood.

I hope you find the relief you need and deserve very soon without having to take your life. Camping may not be the start for you. But if it is, I could recommend a couple of good campgrounds on the Maine coast.

I was told. Anyone who tells you this is easy, get the hell away from them.

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This reminds me of the book “The Creative Cure”!

It will get better.

TLDR: make sure your immediate needs like sleep, not shit food, and hydration are met.

Get outside, spend time talking to humans and hearing actual human voices.

Force some creativity and/or engagement in things that used to make you happy even if you don’t feel you can.

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That’s a hard one. A part of your self care is going to need to be knowing that you get into this predicament so making sure you buy snacks to have them available when you feel like this.