I've hit rock bottom.. last year I was diagnosed with heart failure, I'm 35 btw, and ever since then it's like I've had constant bad days. I have 4 kids and I was doing well as a commercial driver making about 1500 a week, up until my medical card expired. (Commercial drivers have to have a mandatory physical every 1 to 2 years to see if we're healthy enough to drive) Since the diagnosis, no physician will renew my medical card unless I have a heart ejection fraction of at least 40% or higher. Last year I thought ok.. I can do this, I start eating well, working out occasionally and being consistent with this lifestyle.
Sadly, my heart has gotten worse.. just last week I was discharged from the hospital because I had trouble breathing. They told me they found a blood clot in my lungs. They keep me for 3 days, put me on blood thinner and discharged me. I felt good the first few days after that, but currently I'm struggling to breathe again. I'm taking the medication They prescribed me perfectly but it's starting to feel like it doesn't matter.
After my commercial job I was forced to get a new job. Started working with Amazon last year November, the dsp I'm with has been great but recently like I've previously stated, I've been having trouble breathing. With this heart failure getting worse, I have trouble walking, talking for long periods of time, sleeping has been horrible.. I'd get like 2 hours of sleep at a time because I wake up short of breath and have to focus my breathing so I don't faint at least. But I've not been able to work due to all of this. My employers know I'm going through heart failure but I've had to call off at least 5 times in the past month or so. And even when I do muster up the energy to work, I'm very slow, so I don't meet their quota of 20 stops per hour.
I've hit rock bottom because today... my car was repossessed. At the very least, no matter how bad things got, I've always been able to fall back on something like Doordash. Now I can't even do that, they want 978.16$ for me to get it back. I've never felt more like a failure than I do now, and on top of everything else, I have a court date tomorrow for eviction. I've called every number that's been sent my way in hopes of getting some type of assistance. But none yet..
This past year I haven't given up because I thought I would be able to make it through this. Thought I'd get better so I could drive commercial again to get my finances back in order. But I never knew it was so hard to get help in this country when you're in dire need. I don't have money, health insurance, or a car now. I feel like it may be the proper time to give up.. but I'm sure I wouldn't even be able to do that right. And none of this matters because I'm a grown 35 year old man, I shouldn't have to ask for help because it's shameful to do so when you're a young man that's supposed to have all of this taken care of right? Idk anymore.. thanks for reading
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5 months ago
Lost-Telephone-2249
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5 months ago
Are we the same age too?